a terrible day for Mommy

Today Mommy rushed home for Dr Prashant's appointment. She got ready - oh man, she looked pretty with those pearl earrings - whenever Mommy is excited about her outing she would dress up for the occassion. She even skipped lunch - coz she was eager to go see the doctor with Papa. Mommy had called Papa earlier but to no avail. The meeting was at 3pm. Mommy tried again calling papa at 2.30pm. They are already late, you can imagine Mommy getting angry at Papa. Papa told Mommy he was stuck in a meeting and even missed lunch and prayers. Mommy didn't want to hear about it. She was so hurt that Papa was late for the meeting and that they would miss the appointment. It took Mommy so long to fix a good time for both of them to come and now Papa is ruining everything. Papa tried to explain to Mommy that he's making Uncle Nizam drive like a maniac but Mommy doesn't want to listen. When Papa arrived at home it was already 3pm. Mommy cried a bit but when she got into the car she stopped coz she doesn't want to fight with Papa in front of Uncle Nizam. She just looked out and poised herself. They reached Pantai hospital and these bunch of receptionists made them climb all the way to Block B only to tell that Dr Prashant no more practised there and they had to go to Damansara Heights where his clinic is at. You can imagine Papa's fury. He said mommy is a fool not to check the place properly. It's not entirely Mommy's fault coz Mommy consulted her friend who was Dr Prashant's patient 2 years earlier. People and places changed but Papa refused to understand. They then adjourned to Damansara Heights but by then both Mommy and Papa were already so mad at each other. When they got there - they had to wait for others who had their appointments first because Mommy missed her 3pm meet up. After half an hour Papa started to get annoyed and told Mommy to fix another time because he got another important meeting with his friend at 6pm. Mommy then negotiated with the nurse while Papa insisted he couldn't make it at this or that date. Even the nurse got annoyed. The nurse told Mommy, if she can't fix any suitable time, just come on her second day of menses for a check up. When they exited the clinic, Papa took out his PDA calendar and asked the date of Mommy's second day of menses. At this Mommy flipped and cried again - "I don't fix my own menses - it's not in my control. Not everything can be controlled!" She burst out to Papa in the lift. She tried to control her temper but tears just flow and flow on her cheeks. I cried along with Mommy, I know how hurt Mommy feels at that time. Mommy, please don't give up on me. I know at this point you want to quit - quit everything. But please Mommy, I need you to be strong, for me, for Papa. Please Mommy, I cried and begged in silent.

When Papa left for his meeting again, Mommy called Aunty Abby. Aunty Abby gave her some good advice. Mommy is still very angry with Papa but she needs to cool down. Aunty Abby told her to treat everything like a business proposal. "You're married to a businessman - you have to act like one." Mommy doesn't like the idea because it sounded cold. It's not a great way to welcome a baby into this world. But with Papa, she needs a different approach. Papa is not easily excited with the idea of babies coz he already got my half sisters. So Mommy got to be smart about this whole thing. Mommy, I know you - you're such a warm person inside, but with Papa you got to conceal yourself if you want a peaceful life with him. I know you best Mommy - with people you act accordingly, but with me, you are my real true Mommy. I'm with you always - just plan carefully and be strong, okay Mommy. And always Mommy, always pray to Allah. I'm with Him watching you from above, and protecting you always. Amin.